I just walk down the alley, hoping and praying to get mugged, to get stabbed to steal my money. I could just use that pain right now.
Because life is not worth living for right.
I think I will drop out.
Soon.

I have found nothing fruitful in poly. Nothing at all. I'm wasting my time.

醜不拉嘰香菇頭

Pray hard that my pictures will be uploaded................

Today was cool! Though a tired doreen and wendy, we still manage to go from esplanade, to merlion, and walking to marina bay (no joke man), to marina barrage, then to PS . we still had fun manz :D

Took quite a few pix, don't know what to use. Got a few unglam shots of wendy and doreen. Wahaha. Shall tag them later. (Provided facebook allows me to upload photos firstttttttt)

Tmr is week 6, bums hand in. So i'm done with 1414 words (: Hopefully an A... I cannot afford anything lower. Lets go! DA LANG TMR :D

Forgot to mention that I really dislike T-shirt markings now. My skin color is getting darker but my body :/ zzzzzzzzz. How to solve this man. My arm is like 3/4 tan, 1/4 fair............... zzzzzzzz.........

Opps. 2am i need to get sleeping before i oversleep for tmr's photo taking. Confirm oversleep....

outing with parents today. had lunch at chinatown.then headed to bugis for a movie. iluma again... check out my tweeets and facebook status on what happened today. twit quite a bit today.

met bingxun downstairs to collect back my stand and talked for a while before departing to complete my bums. well, it's not completed.. but left a small bits and pieces here to the final product, i hope i do well :/

My second time cycling. And wow did history repeat itself. I got scolded again while cycling. By this dressed-appropriately-for-a-marathon-so-i-guess-he-is-a-pro cyclist. Scolding me to stay in one lane. I so badly wanted to retort that this is my second time on a bicycle. Don't you scold me for not ringing the bell to warn me.

Forget it. I had an accident. I lost control of my bicycle. And I was so lucky i didn't fall onto the ground because it was wet. However, my big toe and my calf got knocked. But I'm fine. Just had a horrid time stopping and *shudders*.

We cycled all the way to Changi Beach and the end! Wooo. Changi Beach was awesome-in-your-dirty-eyes. The wind blew like 40km/h and it was "wet" wind, unlike the absorb moisture in the wind like Harbin's. Cycled for 3 and 1/2 hours while getting caught in the rain too. Awesome but the only problem is my butt pain from sitting on the seat. Sighs.. Oh well :/

BUMS BUMS finishing!

I secretly wish that it was not my fault what happened today. But I hope O levels will be better. Please.

Exciting day today.. Started the day off bad with the mrt and bus rides not smooth. MUST was great, i laughed so much at baby J's jokes and her antics so early in the morning. 8 to 10am is crazy time with them around :D

REMT, I intended to skip because Tim was teaching. But i stayed on. Went to draw equipment, and head over to Moberly for live sound training. It was so cool, we were bored on stage, cladys and wendy decided to coil the microphone wire and we 3 ended up playing skipping on stage with the whole class watching us. :D Cooooooool! FEEDBACKS stink :( Headache after that..

Foodcourt 5, fast food! KFC with classmates daniel keith ken doreen wendy michelle jasmine cladys shuyue vincent chris. Went over to 2044 for keyboard for my new song and BUMS! Glad to Shimmy Sheap again!! Wooohooo. Dinner with chris and had left with cladys shuyue and chris.

@ kembangan playground there was a mother playing catching with her infant kids. When she caught them, she embraced them so tightly, i was so touched by the presence of love, and i didn't know what love was about. oh gosh. thinking.......

Love. Forgot what is like, forgot how is it like. Love is something I hardly get and yet easily tarnished. Oh damn it. I hate this feeling now.

BUMS, didn't do much. Perf, really tired of transposing. :/ Sight-reading again. And our group's performance piece is going to be awwwwwwwwwesomeezxxzzxzxz. Really appreciate the effort. DVPT is going to take up the rest of my life. Sighs....

1) I need to change my life. Without any control, I see my life going outwards.
2) I don't want to be someone i'm not, but if im happy, what is there to say...
3) I want to cry.

1) Tim HAS NOT return picnic money. 30 DOLLARS!

2) I will do DMAT T during holidays.

3) I have paid back my creditors.

4) Human nature on the MRT. Chill guys, no need to start a fight.

1) Oh dang, i'm hungry. The beef chilli cheese fries didn't make much of an impact after all

2) My brother walked in and asked me what's with my fetish over evanescence because according to him, whenever he walks into the room, i'm playing evanescence.

3) I really want to try my luck at dancing. I think it's going to be cool. Although i do fear a bit bit because I have never taken lessons, and i really hope i can find somewhere that suits me. :D *hint hint* to salizah and chris.

4) Accounting test tomorrow, I think i can do it. I think i can pass. But I need that A!

5) I kinda fear the holidays when the workload is huge. And band is also taking up precious assignment time :/

6) I'm kinda happy.

Here's a note to you. How do you view stuff is not of my freaking business. And i really don't know what's wrong with your head. I guess it was injured. too bad, cause i'm not giving a freaking damn about you with your disregarded attitude to me.

Seriously TGIF! Because I got a triple eyelid upon my left eye and it's serious evidence of lack of sleep. Because of this timetable, everyday the starting time gets earlier, which doesn't help a single bit because I have plenty of night activities.

It was planned to be a boring friday with me ending at 12pm and going home to slacksleepwork but instead the day brightened up when chris and keith had nothing to do too :D so we went down to wheelock place to check out mac batteries and see if chris could repair his comp.. Then we walked around for a short while. Before meeting vincent, wendy and mic for LAN :D

Goodness me, 2nd time this week. Oh well, good entertainment. L4D 2 is cool! I mean the maps are seriously longer but the up side is that the monsters have been "upgraded" and it was so much fun using the monsters side already! oooooo.

Walked back to PS where keith had his hair cut while the rest of us departed.

Tonight wasn't a fruitful night, seeing that i'm very tired already and i procrastinate a lot. But i hope i can finish BUMS and a bit of midi and must by monday.

And novel is asking me to go tmr

If only i could whip out a keyboard and play for my life. Because i would like nothing better than to create my own song right now. It's the right time, the right emotion. And it hurts to be here without something bothering me. Damn it. I hate life.
I seriously have absolutely ran out of motivation. I wish i can just drop out now, Leon was right. Life is short. And next thing i know, i might be dead. And why am i here waiting for that day. There is just feet dragging to school and unwillingness to do anything.

I am seriously a goner.

Rare will you find a movie so captivating, so lost in time that although i was warned the long time duration, i never did once look at my clock and see how long left because it drew me right in. Until the point of time, i was panicking when their plane was about to crash, that the characters one by one disappear, and i was tear-ing at the point of time when the male lead disappeared into the water without surfacing. And his once so called children of his were shouting out his name so painfully it really cut.

It is really a movie worth watching. And none better than 10 DMAT-ers unite! With ratio of 01 and 02 is 1:1. Sadly, nothing to mark is special outing (:

And rare will you find someone who listens and gives just the right sentence to change your life forever. Thank you for being there.

On this day of your life, Elliot, we believe God wants you to know ... that you've been skipping out on God's most important gift to man - love.
   
Love is the blood of the soul. God wants all beings to have healthy and strong souls, so God created a simple law to nourish the soul: the more you give love, the more you receive love. Remember all the beings you love - people, animals - that you haven't thought of lately. Do not wait anymore, reconnect with them today and express your love.


I don't understand, why is it so precise. Something occurred to me, and next, it appears as a message.

I might be infringing rights. I'm going through this.






Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

[Chorus:]
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

[Chorus]

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

[Chorus]

waves 14 was cool. dancing really is an art without words, the rawest emotion and the limits of one's body. Congrats to mee-shell for her chero and her dancing is awesome.

It's not only the dancing. It's the song.