For the second time in my life, I wondered why I'm not smoking a cigarette. I know I'm going to regret this question. But whatever it is, it is important how I feel now and now alone. who cares if I regret this in the future.

Regretting the past,
Bearing the present
Worried for the future.

What's the point again?

<3<3

This is the first time ever to celebrate my birthday. I really am thankful for you all. And i don't want you all to be guilty. No no...

Army is all about meet ups.

Weird to come to that conclusion right? But army has really made me more than realise how much I want to do stuff, how much life has in stored for me and what time can do wonders. 2 years ain't short. no no no, but I know that once I made up my mind to do productive things in life, that is when I'll love army.

So to summarize things up, army has brought people closer together. I have gone out with people because army has made me realise how much I miss them. DMAT, bingxun, kejian, jermain, BMT mates, SP band friends (bing, cheryl, angeline, lucas, uncle, mark, huayang, janice, zen, and others i hope i didn't miss out....). And every week feels so nice to be catching up with people, laughing at old times and I secretly wonder whether we will be like this when wrinkles upon our faces, lines of stress and bouts of white hair (not applicable to me, i know i know..) but  I really hope friendship could last and we will never ever break apart. (suddenly, justin bieber's song appears.....) 

Please, I pray to God (once in a long long time)
I would never ever want to break off friendship. Because we fostered so many days/months/years to tears, laughter, supporting one another. Because we don't feel paper thin, and have been changed for good. I might not catch a Grenade for you but baby you're a firework. So light up the world tonight, dance away with my heart cause I need you now. So I thank you for my heart, I thank you for my life, cause without you, I wouldn't run, I wouldn't fly to become a skyscraper~

(If i don't stop, all the lyrics/song titles would continuously ramble on on on on~)

<3 you guys.

A good day on Friday.
1) I'm getting promoted to LCP. I know eventually will happen. But still good news

2) I conducted a 25 man band. Though small and played a Disney song, I still loved it :D Can't forget the first time and love. Disney @ the movies! (:

Happy person on Thursday.

But Good Friday is not a Good Friday
Please.
*Don't*

9Signals

A good experience. At first was worried about the life I was going to go through. But with my seniors and good commanders, I guess these 2 weeks was the best experience I could have for the next 1 year-ish. Sergeant Leonard, Mong and Sean, together with RSM really made our stay enjoyable. Not stressful and quite awesome instead. Gotta miss that place. And Sergeant was nice enough to give quail eggs as parting gifts for us as we didn't eat them during steamboat that day. 
Going to miss Selarang and the stay out life!
Back to Stagmont and stay in CCK with an idiot.

WICKED! <3

Edited the date to fit nicely. Want to remember this moment in my life. Once in a lifetime opportunity to catch Wicked the musical. And yes! I did it! :D

The anticipation was killing. Shouldn't have bought the tickets a month in advance. Made me look so forward to the day since forever. Anyway, it brought a good day forward and I was kind of mentally prepared for what I was going to go through (it seems as if I am the one performing -.-).. Right. So 7pm the doors open, met keith and amelia and headed into the theatre. It was high up but centralised so that it would still be center stage. For 95 bucks, that was seriously the best seats we could get (at that point of time). And the musical begins.

The sound system wasn't the best, I gotta admit. But seeing everything LIVE brought goosebumps. For some strange reason, I was sweating in my hands quite badly. Nervous? Hahahahaha. And oh goodness, it was great/awesome/brilliant. Seeing everything live proved so much better than listening to the soundtrack and knowing the story before hand. Elphaba singing "The Wizard and I" just made me believe, felt so real! The set looked amazing, the moving dragon and the clockworks. Movement for "Dancing through Life" and "One Short Day" felt so right with the setting/story. Costumes were detailed and so vividly connected with one another. Defying Gravity made me gasp. I was truly drawn into the part when she took flight and belted the higher notes. And once the ending of the song came, I had tears. Loved it!

Second half winded down with intensity. It became more dark and based on how life went on for Galinda/Glinda and Elphaba. "As long as you're mine" was so intense. And moving on to "For Good". I have listened to it like too many times, yet the feeling of going through Wicked and listening to the song made me feel as if I never listened to it before. I melted at the song. Seriously.

I would consider re-watching Wicked again :P Any sponsors? This time, I'll pay more! I mean, the sponsor-or would have to pay more than 95!!

Reflection on what's going on. Lets preview on the entire year!

Jan -

1. I was wrapping up my last 2 months in DMAT. 
2. I sprained my back due to dance, and this further affected me in army. (to be continued in 10 months later)....... I remember myself like a old man hunched back going back to school and sitting down like an extremely fragile man.
3. MD XXXIV was the great concert. I have been improving so gradual that it was the best sound that I produced in a long time.... Now I miss SP band like crazy. Love love love you all! (:
4. Practicing for grad show. With meetings and plannings. Enjoyed the ideas but I'm sad it didn't transit into actions.

Feb -

1. Chinese Year New was such a bore. Because I guess I was lonely
2. Dance Injury number 2. Lower back.
3. I had a quarrel with my course mate because of studio booking and assignments. And it made us awkward being friends for so long.
4. Grad show dancing........ Felt so good!

March -

1. Grad show. Vice chair and dancing. It was so good working with steph, amelia and peixiu with committee meetings and working together. BBQ after that was alright, I had more fun in the middle of the night drinking beer. Leon sent us home :D 
2. Band was continuing on! And i only found out I was going Genting 12 hours before the departure..... That was great because of the drunk Saboteur with Jon, Keith and Amelia. Company and rides were okay okay...

April - 

1. Happy 20th Birthday! Celebrated my birthday on stage playing for Japanese relief efforts for the tsunami. We are the world! ( Horrible Alto Clarinet debut -.- )
2. Start to find dependent people to rely on.......
3. Found a job at Little Professors. Started work on 28th April. Nearly signed a contact in Parkway for Singtel.
4. Sleepover twice......
5. Met the new year ones in SP band. Jiyu, Anderson, Yi Jie and Sean.

May - 

1. Started working and felt horrible because I was not doing as well as I did. 
2. I was preparing for IBM too! And I was playing alto clarinet due to the long line of saxophones.....

June -

1. June holidays were a mess! Worked 8 hours every single day (or even more) and pushed myself into so much pressure cause it was time to play catch up with the kids!

July - August -

1. Maintained my work + band practices..... :D
2. 4th IBM on 12 August! 

September - 

1. I ended my work :( Failing my NAPFA twice because of 1 pull up!
2. Entered army on 8/9/2011 (ORD on the 7/9/2013 !!)

October - December -

Met up with everyone that I missed so much. Band clique, Saxessss, DMAT-ers, Colleagues, Kids <3 :D
Gained one really really awesome brother.
Revisited HoGc on Christmas Day.
Nutella Feasts! 
Silver for IPPT after so long! (sucks to retake)
outings (timber, ikea, bugis street, tampines, udders, marina square, 112, Esplanade, din Tai Fung)
Loved all the time spent together. (:

I love my blog. Miss what has been going on.
Today I went back Singapore Polytechnic to celebrate Mark and James's birthday. It is awesome to play saxophone once again. I love it! My instrument is like the best stuff to play. Music is really my life, cannot live without it man.
Went out with Rebecca, Jolene, William, Daniel, Amelia, Keith, Peixiu and Ken for Din Tai Fung. It is an awesome catch up time especially not seeing them for long. Next is Christmas chalet and New Year with friends! (:

Personally feeling, I'm losing money :( Spent way too much. Sighs, need to save the money for cello and dance lessons. I can't spend so much. Can't spend so much. Save save save!!

Memories of poly came back, dmat and band are really loved. I am sad enough that I didn't treasure the poly times. But I guess this is when I truly tell who my friends are and how much they mean to me. I pray that we never ever separate and remain like this forever. Though time might be tough to meet, but I will try my best! (: I'm already sad that I lost certain friends along the way, but I guess this is the time to pull everyone back. Bonding time.

Sidenote, i see you again............................... that meant nothing to me. 

I dont really know who reads this stuff but a blog is blog and i will rant some stuff that has been going on since.... August?!

September - I left the amazing student care I worked for with an extremely bitter heart. I miss the kids right now but have been constantly going back to visit and of course outings with my colleagues! :D

Went back for Childrens' Day and I am still waiting for the pictures................. I was glad to hear that the kids missed me and still remember me though I was absent for extremely long time. <3

K box with my colleagues on the 24th of October at Hougang plaza! Though I can't sing and I really am mic-phobia, I still went had enjoyed myself! (:

Enlisted into army and yes, it is dangerous talking about NS stuff here.. So I would just have to say, life is okay. could be worse if I was dropped into another platoon *cough cough platoon 2* and yeah, I met several friends and one awesome brother. (: Apart from that, I scream : 2 MORE MONTHS TO POP LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~


On my bookout days, I spent most of the time sleeping. And going out with my parents and friends! So much so that the weekend passes like mad....... So far: I met the following:

Keith Amelia Ken Peixiu at Marche! :D 22nd October
ShaoPing Kokshen Jiaqi at Plaza Sing for LUNCH 30th October
Angeline yubing : drink at holland V 4th Nov
Lionel's birthday chalet : 30th Sep
Udders with Vanessa and Bing : 14th October
Siglap yongtaufu and udders with Bing Kayheng Huayang and Janis : 15th October
Saxophone Outing <3 : 7th October 
Steamboat with Army Section: 25th October

That is all I can think of..... See the amazing packed stuff I have?! 

Now, currently moody without band and physically playing my instrument. Apart from that, life is moving on...... (:
Moving on:
Time to meet Jolene, Rebecca, William. 
Waiting for Lucas and Alan to enlist :P
Go for Alumni Band to perform. *pray hard that I am released early from my vocation place to perform*

Done! Update on my life.

P.S
I love you (:

I am here
Beyond the dark; among the red dress
I cant let you
Far from my reach; abide my rules.
I doubt happiness
Cry; I will cry forever.